How TV Fucks children up...

I'm on you tube searching for old cartoons from my childhood cause that's what it's for. Now when I was little I watched an insane amount of cartoons and fantasy movies. So much so that sometimes I think that some of them might just be vivid dreams that I had and remember. I remember bits and pieces of them but in some cases don't remember names of programs. Which leads me to question sometimes whether or not they truly existed.

Case in point I have vivid memories of a show that is much like Rob Zombies art (see Beavis and Butthead do America trip out scene) I remember it was on MTV but that's about it. Many of the images I remember as vividly disturbing and scary but I watched and loved it anyway. Yet no one I describe this show to seems to remember it. This is the day that I found out that this cartoon wasn't a figment of my imagination, Ladies and Gentleman:
The Brothers Grunt:


Can you imagine a 11 year old watching that this day and age. I watched this clip and I felt sick. Yes, this shit still disturbs me to this day but I watched every episode.

I had a nightmare last night that I have had pretty often during my life. I know it stems from the movie Darby O'gill and the Little people. From the scene where he meets the banshee. I woke up thinking oh, that image is 50 years old it couldn't be as scary now as I thought it was, I was wrong:



It's kind of insane for me to think now that this is the stuff that I subjected myself to when I was a kid and more so that I actually took to loving it. I can remember after I saw the movie Darby O'gill I check out all the irish folklore books in my library and read a book called Wait til helen comes where a young girls sister sees a ghost. And Brothers Grunt made me want to watch Heavy Metal and then Wizard. Such disturbing images shaped my personality, in the 90's I now understand why parents at the time were so pissed off by it. But now these images are such a deep part of my psyche, ha, and I don't know if that's a good or bad thing.

There are a few other shows that I have in my head that I swear up and down are real I'll post them if I find them.

I sat on the front lawn

The thing about NY is that it is the single most loneliest city I have
ever been to in my life. Let me explain; I was walking through union
square yesterday, it was a beautiful sunny day and it was packed to
the outskirts with people. I noticed then that people were paired off
only seeming to talk to their individual groups. They all seemed to be
enjoying the day but something about this sight struck me as lonely.
And I think it's because it reminded me of lunch time in high school.
You know, goths stand by the library, chollas on the lawn, drama kids
by the drama building and no one recognizes each others existance. Now
cram this into a small park with adults. I realized holy shit this
city is one of the most populated yet smallest in the world, the
people to space ratio is totally fucked and how we seem to deal is
completely ignore one another.

Half awake poetry LOL

11:38 in the morning. I just woke up....like an hour ago... Have to be at work at 3...waiting for my Dunkin' doughnuts coffee to percolate... Went to watch Milk two nights ago, cried like a baby... Think Sean Penn was amazing and genuine in that role, surprisingly soft and determined, not the hard ass gangsta I'm used to seeing him as... thinking of auditioning for something... Job's going well... Book's getting written... Hopefully better than this entry... two solid days of sun... now fucking rain rain rain...Miss California with all my heart... never thought I'd see myself write that... Maybe it is time for a change, Obama style...

Dunkin Dominos

I am now under the impression that Dunkin' Donuts in New York is the best fucking coffee ever. I love my coffee maker, I love it so hard. Anyway, I saw the Dominos Pizza video of the employees putting shit in their noses and farting on the food way too early this morning, I think they need to go to jail simply because of the fact that they thought that they wouldn't get in trouble for it. I'm gonna read fast food nation soon so hopefully coupled with this video it'll keep me thin for life. Yay day off, my two day off goals are gym and laundry, wooo exciting. I'm thinking of doing eharmony cause I'm bored and yeah, curious but if I do I'm totally gonna tell you about how it goes, I can't wait. Anyway, I'm hungry and I'm putting off breakfast, stupid dominos hicks...

Whoa, Update

So I've been slacking on this blog for a whole month! What's been up with me, a lot has been happening this previous month. Most recently I've started a new job. Yay I'm no longer part of that lucky 22%.. I hostess at a Chocolate restaurant in union square. The people are great and yes it is something that I did back in college but I like the fact that I am actually working, you can only sit on your ass for so long. I've been at it only a few days but it's been good to me. I also have been working on another book. It's turning out well, I love it when I have something to work on. The outline is finished. I read "A million little pieces" it was all good until my friends informed me that it was all a big fucking lie. That totally killed it for me, James Grey should have just been like yo none of this happened hope you like the show. It was still a good book though, half way through I was like, yeah none of this happened, weird shit happens every day but if this happened in this order you must have been high through rehab or high while writing the book or both. And how convenient that half the people in the story are supposedly dead in the updates... OK, I'm done.