You only want it cause it's over

Someone's come back into my life again...

Putting it mildly, and it's driving me crazy.

I've worked so hard in breaking down my walls not being so hard hearted and hard on life. And now I feel like life is pop quizzing me. 

All I want to do is be mean and spew out the hurt I feel inside. 

At the same time I want to be at peace and love unconditionally...

The eternal Gemini forever Goth and Hippie :)

Is there a balance between this??

The worst part is not feeling like I can depend on this person. 

So much shattered trust. How do I forgive?? 

My heart is so weighed down tonight. 

It feels like I'm drowning. 

                           

                                 

"All we are saying..."

Forgiveness is in my cards....even if I sometimes don't believe...I've come to realize that it is the ultimate thing that will be the end of me if I don't let go and pardon. It is so so very hard though. It's in my nature to want to control most outcomes since I prefer only the surprises that are happy....but I deserve to be free of these prisons of my own making ...may the universe help my soul to fly!