Don't knock the chick in the Coral...

I left my house today wearing black skinny pants, brown boots and a coral colored velour hoodie. As I made the journey into the Manhattan streets (half of the subways weren't operating normally), I looked around me and my self confidence shrunk a tad. All around me there were a sea of black leather motorcycle jackets and brown coats and tan coats and more black. You couldn't distinguish one person from another except for the occasional colored pashmina or hat. I couldn't help but hearing Pink Floyd's wall in my head as I walked all over trying to find homecoming gifts for my family. I do not fit in here. At least not in the drab neutrals of the holiday season. 

Clothing choice has always been an issue with me, I am drawn to bright colors and pieces with a rockabilly or gothic flare, you know, stuff I am inspired by. I've had this experience repeated since my early high school days, I'm sorry to inform any of my adolescent readers that it doesn't get any better. It takes courage to hold your head up high when you feel like you don't fit in or that people are looking at you and judging. No matter how much you wanna say forget them, sometimes there are days when you can't. Believe me I have tried to do current fashion, I've bought the skinny jeans and the unflattering lipsticks and shirts, but when I actually wear them I feel like, there's no other word for it: a tool, and that is just what I have become. I let the corporations that sponsor the mannequins and the magazines get to me and make me shell out my cash for the ugly frost lipstick that makes me look dead or the jeans that make me look really short and all I have to say for my self is "hey, I'm in style."

I spoke to my mom about this today and I mentioned that I needed a new coat for the bitter cold that will eventually come to NY. I know in CA they are going to sell that stuff super cheap after Christmas and I thought cool I'll have winter clothes like everyone else here and then I sighed and said, "Whatever, I really want a either a red peacoat, spearmint or leopard," I guess I will never learn. Good...

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1. Shirley Manson

2. Sophia Loren

3. Marc by Marc Jacobs

4. Gwen Stefani

5. Kiera Knightley in the Duchess

6. Courtney Love Circa 1994

My favorite Obsession

I feel like there is something officially wrong with my neighbor, the ass smell is back, It's so bad I can't even breathe in the kitchen. I haven't written in quite a while. I haven't been up to much, I actually have an audition to go to tomorrow... I'll let you know how it goes.... Since I've been between jobs/gigs I've had alot of me time and time to work on the weird things I am obsessed with....
1. Pugs- since I don't have mine with me I've created sort of a Paper pug garden on my walls... Kinda like the old lady in fried green tomatoes
2. Old lady glasses- I have so many and I love them all, Mary-kate would fight me for them
3. Fantasy Movies- disney, Labyrinth, Legend...I love them all
4. The Simpsons
Oh my god I have to go the stink is getting worse, I really think he died down there...

Pizza Pizza

So I just got back from the greatest pizza I've tasted since I've been away from Italy. Shit, Aaron what was it called again? It doesn't matter I know how to find it still. As I was eating I was wondering why it tasted so familiar, then I realized that it tastes exactly like the pizza from Naples, Pretty awesome! I'll be back there for my next pizza fix. Damn good Sangria too. Terribly distracting though because I am constantly on the diet that never ends, That shit just went out the window tonight.
Don't ever start dieting kids it'll drive you crazy for the rest of your life.
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My show apparently wraps this week. HOLY CRAP that was fast. This whole month just flew by. I found a couple of audition notices looking for actors in October so cross your fingers everybody. Fun times Kids fun times.
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I'm looking around at the white walls of my room and I can't wait to paint the crap out of it.

Ass smell going on day 3!!

Thought you might like to know, it still reeks! I thought I'd surprise you all with a vlog but, Youtube takes to fucking long to upload and I got stuff to do today and Blogger only lets you download videos that are I don't know a second long. Better luck next time kids when my patience with life isn't hanging by a thread. Maybe I should do a tequila shot before the show tonight huh?

Don't disturb the Monster under the sink!!

So about a the day before yesterday or so, there was a leak in the apartment that was affecting the downstairs apartments. The landlord came and cut a massive hole in the wall with the plumber so they could reach it and fix it. Problem solved, NOT. Yesterday in the morning I detected the faint smell of ass as I went back and forth down the community stair and by 7 o'clock the ass smell was penetrating through my closed bedroom door. I ended up hermetically sealing the hole my damn self cause God Damn if I was gonna wait for the entire house to smell like sewage. However the apartment downstairs reeks of ass outside the door, flies are collecting and I just saw a roach run under the stove where there is still the faintest whif o' asshole. Jesus I hope the guy didn't come home downstairs and die of the stink, seriously that would be sad, he seems pretty nice.

I fought him and won!!


Seriously, don't move this cardboard.


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On a lighter note my friend Morgan and I made the journey across boroughs to Target. 5 month without it and I forgot how awesome it was. They had a sweet sale on blenders (which I have already Christened with Margarita) that made my day. I had to take a picture of the cart though, there was household products and underwear. We looked like the Desperate Housewives of Astoria.

Let's all settle this with a big glass of Hemp Milk!

I need to get out more. It's raining like a Mothafucker here. I like New York rain but not when I have to trudge across boroughs through it with my pathetic little umbrella that cost me a fortune. Tonight's our final dress and we open tomorrow. I'm as ready as I'll ever be. There's some good people on this show that I really like working with. I think I've said this before but my favorite scene to do is the Clarence murder scene. If you come to the show stay to watch that. Every night we get more and more into it. I love working with the Shakespearian "language" and as we get better I can hear the words clearly and this has become one of my favorite Shakespearian plays. I don't know about other actors but I don't get much of a grasp on scripts unless I hear them out loud whether I speak it myself or watch the show beforehand. This especially happens to me with Shakespeare.

I made the trek this morning in the rain to whole foods and while I was buying soymilk I noticed that they sell hemp milk. Now I will partake in the drinking of the soy plant, you got me there but Hemp just doesn't strike me as something I should drink even if it's Vanilla flavored. It made me think of that Lewis Black joke how it's Soy Juice cause there's no soy tittie, Where's the Hemp Tittie? HA, eww gross, I'm done....

A night at the theatre...

Last night I went to see the invited dress of Equus (It's starts previews tonight) and I was blown away. It was amazing, I had never read or seen the play before. This production was so dark, erotic and slightly disturbing. It's kind of not brainer when I think about it but, I was actually surprised that it was about fetishism. I got to go because my friend and roommate is in the cast. I love watching him onstage. He can make the most vibrant characters effortless. Daniel Radcliffe and Richard Griffiths were great.

Yes, Daniel does get naked with the girl in the last scene. In my eyes Daniel is still just a boy, really didn't he just barely turn 18? He gave off that vibe that you have at that age when you are still just a child about those things. I'm not saying that he came off insecure at all but he still hasn't lost all the awkwardness that comes after your teen years. He's not exactly a man yet but he's not a boy. It made it compelling to watch him in the entire performance, not just the nude scene. The girl was bolder with her nudity but I think she was older playing younger.

The Dancers playing the horses were amazing. They had on these shoes that were horseshoes on 5 inch stilts but they had no heel support, you really have to see them to believe them. They were in brown long sleeve lightweight shirts and brown corduroys and they wore horse masks made out of steel rods whose eyes lit up. The Dancers were all six feet at least and in top condition. The effect was disturbing and erotic. I joked with my friend after the show that I never had a equestrian fetish until now. They were beautiful, you could tell that they studied the movements of the horses and it came across well. They looked like men who embodied the spirit of horses. Gorgeous all of them and haunting, god I wish I could see it again.

I should just bath in a meat locker

I heart my new baby coffee maker! I heart it so hard! No more plugging money down the overpriced starbucks hole...It seems that the hot water heater is broken FUUUUCK! Now I smell like wet dog! I thought I had used up all the hot water yesterday and that's why it wasn't working but there's no hot water today either. Shit, I haven't had to take a cold birdbath in the sink since a S.D black out in the '90's that lasted a few days. NO fun, either that or I don't know how to use a radiator in the bathroom... I'm not in Antarctica or camping in the mountains, I want my Hot Water!!

Awesome sight of the day!

I just saw the most awesome thing at The Strand(Bookstore) today. It was this this old 1950's paperback pulp/smut book I can't remember the title but the caption read "He learned about sex from the servants, He practiced on the girls at school and now he wants a DARKED SKINNED WOMAN!!" yes it was capitalized and underlined too. And the picture was one of those old fashioned pinup style pictures with a man with no shirt on smoking on his side in a bed looking up at a woman not unlike Gina Lollobrigida in a white half slip and bra standing in front of him with her head thrown back. That really is everything, total triple threat! I was going to take a picture but those rare book section employees watch you like hawks. I didn't buy it because it had a lot of pages missing but now it looks like ebay time for me!

Let the Angel give you rose petals but don't eat the mushrooms!

Dean and Deluca want you to eat these:

Ay Yi Yi! I love the "never eat raw" warning
Who ever sends me a recipe for these I'll make it and send some to you ;)

The coolest thing I saw today was in the 42nd station, there was a woman all dressed in white with her face painted white he outfit was sort of like a white virgin Mary costume and she had on white wings. She was standing on a box surrounded with some roses in the prayer position and when someone put money in her cap she came to life would beckon you forward take out a white sack she pulled out from god knows where and you give her your hand and she would place a dark pink rose petal in your hand smile and go back to the prayer position. I know she probably means it to be saintly but I found it awesomely creepy.