Don't knock the chick in the Coral...

I left my house today wearing black skinny pants, brown boots and a coral colored velour hoodie. As I made the journey into the Manhattan streets (half of the subways weren't operating normally), I looked around me and my self confidence shrunk a tad. All around me there were a sea of black leather motorcycle jackets and brown coats and tan coats and more black. You couldn't distinguish one person from another except for the occasional colored pashmina or hat. I couldn't help but hearing Pink Floyd's wall in my head as I walked all over trying to find homecoming gifts for my family. I do not fit in here. At least not in the drab neutrals of the holiday season. 

Clothing choice has always been an issue with me, I am drawn to bright colors and pieces with a rockabilly or gothic flare, you know, stuff I am inspired by. I've had this experience repeated since my early high school days, I'm sorry to inform any of my adolescent readers that it doesn't get any better. It takes courage to hold your head up high when you feel like you don't fit in or that people are looking at you and judging. No matter how much you wanna say forget them, sometimes there are days when you can't. Believe me I have tried to do current fashion, I've bought the skinny jeans and the unflattering lipsticks and shirts, but when I actually wear them I feel like, there's no other word for it: a tool, and that is just what I have become. I let the corporations that sponsor the mannequins and the magazines get to me and make me shell out my cash for the ugly frost lipstick that makes me look dead or the jeans that make me look really short and all I have to say for my self is "hey, I'm in style."

I spoke to my mom about this today and I mentioned that I needed a new coat for the bitter cold that will eventually come to NY. I know in CA they are going to sell that stuff super cheap after Christmas and I thought cool I'll have winter clothes like everyone else here and then I sighed and said, "Whatever, I really want a either a red peacoat, spearmint or leopard," I guess I will never learn. Good...

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1. Shirley Manson

2. Sophia Loren

3. Marc by Marc Jacobs

4. Gwen Stefani

5. Kiera Knightley in the Duchess

6. Courtney Love Circa 1994