I'm in a new city, a new world, a new life. I must admit the thought of seeing someone while I am out here has dawned on me once or twice. I'm not sure I'm in the stablest position to be in a serious relationship right now but when the inevitable loneliness hits me it's hard not to want to have someone to be there, in "that way". I did make a conscious decision to no longer date the hot messes that I am used to, (Not you dude, relax) and have resolved to be treated right, I know people think wait isn't that a no brainer but there is something about the hot mess that is the "bad boy" that girls are just so attracted to. I'm realizing that if a you realize early on that a person is a mess or "complicated" when you meet them don't bother trying to fix it because the change has to come within the person, your love won't fix it.
Maybe I will start dating again, God Damn, the thought of it scares me right now. I've got to take it slow this time. It feels like this will be the first time I am exploring this, Really dating and not jumping into things. Shit we'll see this blog is making me jittery just writing it... Later y'all
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It is such a relief to be over the "bad boy rocker" phase of my life! I had to swear off dating while I got my shit together, and even when I did start dating again, I ended up with a secret asshole and a dumbass, before I decided to give in and let Ross be more than just a friend. I guess it took me a while to accept someone who really just loved me for who I am, faults and all, but every day I grow more and more thankful for that love. He loves me despite my bullshit, but never fails to call me out on it, and has supported me through depression, mood swings, health problems, and all the crap life throws at you. It is totally worth taking a chance on the nice guy/friend, or waiting to meet one, even if you don't think you're attracted to him in the first place.
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