There

I understand that this is a journey that I have to make myself. It's hard when you set out from your home to holding on to nothing more than a dream and a place to stay (maybe not even that much). I have to learn how to adapt and go through the motions and learn to stand on my own two feet. It's not easy not being reassured every step of the way. Even when my heart sinks because of not getting a callback that I really wanted or being panic stricken about not making the rent this month, I have to stay calm and with myself. I have had chances to turn back but my heart says to push on and continue. 

I can only let this mood and state be a passing shadow in my life, the sun always rises in the morning.  I hope that what I am doing here in this city is like dropping stones into water and the ripples go on and on. I would like that. Alot of times I try to think of my blossoming career as water dripping out of a dam and eventually the dam will break and flood. I have hope within myself and hope with my talents and I have to believe that deep down they will not go unrewarded.