The thing about NY is that it is the single most loneliest city I have
ever been to in my life. Let me explain; I was walking through union
square yesterday, it was a beautiful sunny day and it was packed to
the outskirts with people. I noticed then that people were paired off
only seeming to talk to their individual groups. They all seemed to be
enjoying the day but something about this sight struck me as lonely.
And I think it's because it reminded me of lunch time in high school.
You know, goths stand by the library, chollas on the lawn, drama kids
by the drama building and no one recognizes each others existance. Now
cram this into a small park with adults. I realized holy shit this
city is one of the most populated yet smallest in the world, the
people to space ratio is totally fucked and how we seem to deal is
completely ignore one another.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
Half awake poetry LOL
11:38 in the morning. I just woke up....like an hour ago... Have to be at work at 3...waiting for my Dunkin' doughnuts coffee to percolate... Went to watch Milk two nights ago, cried like a baby... Think Sean Penn was amazing and genuine in that role, surprisingly soft and determined, not the hard ass gangsta I'm used to seeing him as... thinking of auditioning for something... Job's going well... Book's getting written... Hopefully better than this entry... two solid days of sun... now fucking rain rain rain...Miss California with all my heart... never thought I'd see myself write that... Maybe it is time for a change, Obama style...
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Dunkin Dominos
I am now under the impression that Dunkin' Donuts in New York is the best fucking coffee ever. I love my coffee maker, I love it so hard. Anyway, I saw the Dominos Pizza video of the employees putting shit in their noses and farting on the food way too early this morning, I think they need to go to jail simply because of the fact that they thought that they wouldn't get in trouble for it. I'm gonna read fast food nation soon so hopefully coupled with this video it'll keep me thin for life. Yay day off, my two day off goals are gym and laundry, wooo exciting. I'm thinking of doing eharmony cause I'm bored and yeah, curious but if I do I'm totally gonna tell you about how it goes, I can't wait. Anyway, I'm hungry and I'm putting off breakfast, stupid dominos hicks...
Monday, April 13, 2009
Whoa, Update
So I've been slacking on this blog for a whole month! What's been up with me, a lot has been happening this previous month. Most recently I've started a new job. Yay I'm no longer part of that lucky 22%.. I hostess at a Chocolate restaurant in union square. The people are great and yes it is something that I did back in college but I like the fact that I am actually working, you can only sit on your ass for so long. I've been at it only a few days but it's been good to me. I also have been working on another book. It's turning out well, I love it when I have something to work on. The outline is finished. I read "A million little pieces" it was all good until my friends informed me that it was all a big fucking lie. That totally killed it for me, James Grey should have just been like yo none of this happened hope you like the show. It was still a good book though, half way through I was like, yeah none of this happened, weird shit happens every day but if this happened in this order you must have been high through rehab or high while writing the book or both. And how convenient that half the people in the story are supposedly dead in the updates... OK, I'm done.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Wicked thing to do...
Oh, I play a dangerous game
I toy with my addictions
Go straight for the candy and the drink
Toy with my own emotions, tickle my heart
Smoke the last stick and tease myself by standing by the scent
Commonly denying myself the most uncommon
Until I go straight for it..
I toy with my addictions
Go straight for the candy and the drink
Toy with my own emotions, tickle my heart
Smoke the last stick and tease myself by standing by the scent
Commonly denying myself the most uncommon
Until I go straight for it..
I love my readers
In regards to my previous post I got this comment on it (in case you all don't read them):
In spite of all your keen observations, you still grouped all men together into one big, negative group. Not all guys are afraid of commitment and trying to fuck on the first date or dumping girls for not putting out. The sad part is, the guys who want commitment and treat ladies with respect, etc. are completely ignored by women for dating. Most women, it seems, would rather date and fuck the assholes then bitch about it to the good guy. You know the good guy, the guy who is always there for girls to cry to, the one you "don't like that way", or the one regarded as a brother or in "the friend zone"...the one who you always bitched to about the manwhores and assholes...I wish women would realize those are the guys they should be dating, instead of bitching to them that there are no good guys. Umm...all most girls need to do to find a good guy is look at the guy next to them next time they are crying.
- Matt
So my answer is this. The previous post was not intended by any means to group all men together, just the tricky fuckers I date. I know there are men out there that want to be in loving commited relationships (If I didn't wish on this star and have hope I would have crawled in a hole and died along time ago.) You have no idea how many times I hear this from nice guys who are by the way in loving and commited relationships when they tell me. I personally don't have a "friend zone" I find those messed up and a total mind fuck for the guys I am friends with hence most of my male friends are married or gay. In all honesty I have not had a single male friend to cry on in about 2 years and the last time I tried dating my "friend zone" guy he did what other guys that I was crying to him about did: hit it and ran. He was pretty crafty I'll give him that and he was and is my absolute last friend zone guy.
My lovely (taken) male friends are exactly what I hope to find in a guy but it's just so rare for me to find someone genuine. I've dated enough to realize this I am not intentionally attracted to assholes and I believe me spot the warning signs early. So my advice to men in the friend zone, you know while your in that zone and that chick doesn't reciprocate and allows you still to be all friendly come be my friend cause women aren't stupid they know when a guy friend likes them. If she does tell you that she thinks of you as a brother pull back please and find me cause I guarantee you she knows how you feel or at least has a glimmer of a hint. Anyway, I can not tell you how much I wissssshhhhh that there was a guy that I was sitting next to that I could cry on right now, and the pisser about it is that I am with it enough to know that he would be "the one". That is one I am trying to find I guess you could say.
In spite of all your keen observations, you still grouped all men together into one big, negative group. Not all guys are afraid of commitment and trying to fuck on the first date or dumping girls for not putting out. The sad part is, the guys who want commitment and treat ladies with respect, etc. are completely ignored by women for dating. Most women, it seems, would rather date and fuck the assholes then bitch about it to the good guy. You know the good guy, the guy who is always there for girls to cry to, the one you "don't like that way", or the one regarded as a brother or in "the friend zone"...the one who you always bitched to about the manwhores and assholes...I wish women would realize those are the guys they should be dating, instead of bitching to them that there are no good guys. Umm...all most girls need to do to find a good guy is look at the guy next to them next time they are crying.
- Matt
So my answer is this. The previous post was not intended by any means to group all men together, just the tricky fuckers I date. I know there are men out there that want to be in loving commited relationships (If I didn't wish on this star and have hope I would have crawled in a hole and died along time ago.) You have no idea how many times I hear this from nice guys who are by the way in loving and commited relationships when they tell me. I personally don't have a "friend zone" I find those messed up and a total mind fuck for the guys I am friends with hence most of my male friends are married or gay. In all honesty I have not had a single male friend to cry on in about 2 years and the last time I tried dating my "friend zone" guy he did what other guys that I was crying to him about did: hit it and ran. He was pretty crafty I'll give him that and he was and is my absolute last friend zone guy.
My lovely (taken) male friends are exactly what I hope to find in a guy but it's just so rare for me to find someone genuine. I've dated enough to realize this I am not intentionally attracted to assholes and I believe me spot the warning signs early. So my advice to men in the friend zone, you know while your in that zone and that chick doesn't reciprocate and allows you still to be all friendly come be my friend cause women aren't stupid they know when a guy friend likes them. If she does tell you that she thinks of you as a brother pull back please and find me cause I guarantee you she knows how you feel or at least has a glimmer of a hint. Anyway, I can not tell you how much I wissssshhhhh that there was a guy that I was sitting next to that I could cry on right now, and the pisser about it is that I am with it enough to know that he would be "the one". That is one I am trying to find I guess you could say.
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